Empty Head
At this very moment, I'm typing in an empty text box but I still don't have the idea on what to blog about. AGAIN. Writing this very sentence takes about two minutes because my head is still spinning from lack of sleep last night. Actually EVERY night. I always tend to wake up on the wee hours and stare at nowhereness.
Before I typed this sentence, I had finished reading parts of the Catching Fire ebook, roll on the bed a few times, and watched a cooking show. That's how empty-headed I am right now. Now I have something worth-sharing.
The other night, I woke up and the first thing I did was to check the time in my cellphone. The digital clock showed 2:24 am. It felt like I had been in a very deep sleep and wake up not remembering anything except that my position the night before was still what I'm in at the moment. The fact that I sleep facing the wall on my right, the right phase of my body was sore. I turn and relax and face the ceiling and what I do to make myself sleep again is to reflect on myself. I think of what I learned yesterday and the things that matter to me the most. All of a sudden, the feeling of fear creeps into me. I start to pray, asking god to embrace me and put me to sleep again but I can't. I end up just closing my eyes for hours and see images on the lids of it. A number of hours pass and I sleep. Probably at 4 am. I wake up in the morning at 11 am and eat my breakfast slash lunch.
this is how i look like every morning.Confession: I can't sleep without my mom !! She's coming back on Thursday and that means I still have two sleepless nights to overcome until I get a sound sleep. My mom wasn't here for a week so you could just imagine how I look like a drug addict now. (eksaherada lang)
I'm too random noh ? Don't mind me. Just so I have something to post :)
joylin <3
